i looked away so quick when i first made eye contact with my crush.
I'm scared, babe. I love you with all my heart and now you're in surgery. You told me such vague things last night after saying you were in hospital. That's why I read your messages to your close mate. I'm so sorry for doing it, I hate myself for invading you privacy but something just seemed off. You weren't quite yourself. To some degree I wish I hadn't because reading the severity of the situation and knowing just how scared you were and still are broke me. I had a meltdown after I clocked off and Mum of all people had to come and get me at 2am. On the other hand though, I'm glad I know because everything makes more sense now. You're messages and how different you sounded on the phone when you called me, the fact that you called me considering you never do that and why you asked me to come and see you. I just wish I had gone to see you, I hate that I said no. Had I known how serious it was and how scared you were I would have been there in a heartbeat. You're in surgery right now and I haven't slept... it's past 9am and I'm meant to work in two hours. I won't be working though, I already called in and said I can't. I'll be sitting either in the hospital waiting or by my phone waiting for you to come back online, or both. Tbh, doing both ...
Solo a me fa venir da piangere il conto alla rovescia della fine dell'anno? Quando tutti iniziano a nominare 10 capisci veramente che è finito un anno e ne sta per iniziare uno nuovo; poi 9,8,7,6 e in un lampo ricordi tutto quello che è successo, quante cose sono successe, quante persone hai conosciuto, quante ne hai perse, quante persone sono entrate nel tuo cuore, quanti amori sono iniziati e poi finiti, a quante persone hai dovuto dire addio; 5,4,3 tutte le volte che hai pianto per gioia o per tristezza, tutte le volte che hai voluto fare qualcosa ma non hai fatto per paura, tutte le persone che hai voluto mandare a fanculo e tutte le persone che hai mandato a fanculo, i litigi con i genitori, i litigi con persone importanti dove hai detto cose di cui subito dopo ti sei pentita di aver detto. Pensi a tutto... - - #frasi#citazioni#tumblr#tumblrpost#tumblrgirl#quote#neon#purple#party#girl#boy#relationship#cool#love#likeplease
Sure do. My first boyfriend. What an a*shole you turned out to be. It still cuts like a knife whenever I hear the words replaying in my head; 'I'm no longer physically attracted to you.' Fancy saying that to a recovering anorexic who had just regained all her weight and was finally a healthy size. I can't trust anyone because of you. Try as might I just can't bring myself to believe anything nice people say about my appearance. When it happens all I can think is when you told me I was beautiful, all the while thinking I wasn't anymore. You ruined any faith I had in other people and in myself. I wasn't happy with how I looked and you made it even harder for me to have to accept myself. I still don't. I'm overwhelmed with compliments and affection from the people closest to me now, especially from my boyfriend. But deep down, I never believe it. When he asks 'why are you so amazing?' I smile for a fleeting moment. But in all honesty all I can think is that one day he'll realise I'm not. One day he'll say it and not mean it. I can't accept that I might be amazing or beautiful because you broke what little trust I had left. You knew all my problems and worries and yet you still took it upon yourself to tell me that I wasn't attractive anymore. You had to know that would break me. Or ...
Joyce Wright Pierce
~Look👀 at the 🐤birds.🐦 They don't plant or harvest🌱 or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren't you far more valuable to Him than they are? Matthew 6:26~♥~♥~