Jess, Jessa, Jessie Marie
Sometimes, in the morning... Inside, everything hurts and I feel like I am dying. Some days, it lasts all day. Sometimes it lasts for what seems like FOREVER and noone understands. Guys... I AM SCARED. I am TERRIFIED. I have always wanted something more and something different. Something new... A new body. A new mind. A new life, but I never created it for myself. I always STARTED, but I always stopped doing it somehow so I beat myself up and just thought I was meant to remain in this status quo. I still think that some days. I am afraid that this change is going to be temporary also. But I'm gonna try and beat this again. Continuing to try is the only way that I am going to be able to help my team. I have to be strong for my team and for the girls that are going through what I am going through... Who think that there is noone else out there that will understand that they just CANT get out of bed to workout or eat right or go to work some days....
ku_not_cool#warning this about to be a long ass post and I know how you mf'ers hate to read anything other than the shaderoom. Yesterday #june25 marked my first year in #nyc. This amazing, over whelming at times city, has given me my confidence back and the ability to believe in myself again. I remember going back and forth in LA about what to do. Constantly questioning if I had the guts to actually go. I can honestly say this has been one of the best decisions I made in a long time. I was fake happy, and always putting on a front in LA, not letting anyone in on how I felt about myself or my circumstances. Who knows maybe I'll move back one day, but for now I'm enjoying this crazy roller coaster in NY. The boyfriend I never had, I luhhh you like I was from here. #thiscity❤️ #niggasstillaintshitonbothcoastslmao#nyc
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